Thursday, July 24, 2008

Say A Little Prayer For Him

It is 8.15 pm and I'm sitting cross legged on the floor near gate 61 at the HKIA. I had thought a couple of days ago that I was done going to the airport. At least untill I go back for raya lah. I have not even sorted out my photos from the previous SG trip which incidentally ended 20th of July. 4 days ago..... and now 4 days later, I'm back at HKIA, waiting for my flight which has been delayed to 10.10pm back to SG.

Why am I heading back to SG so soon? Not for pleasant reasons I'm afraid. My FIL has been warded and the prognosis is grim. Docs say it is not looking too good for him. His bp is low, his pulse is erratic and the worst part of it all is that he's unconscious. It saddens me that I know for a fact that the person he would want holding his hand and sitting by his side is not there. I have watched a couple of shows and documentaries that has ascertained that people in comas can actually hear what is being said to them. They can hear it in their subconscious. I think this particular person should not be thinking of herself and other asses , she should be by my FIL's side and talking to him, comforting him, encouraging him although it might seem futile.

I'm pissed as hell that this particular person is not worried that any breath that my FIL takes might be his last. Why wouldn't she want to be with him? Does she not love him? I mean, seriously, if alam was sick, I'd rather stay home and be by his side than go to work. Oh! wait a minute! I can stay home and take care of him, I'm no longer working! But I digress......

I'm also pissed as hell that the flight has been delayed. The person checking us in was also an ass. Instead of apologising for the fact that the flight was delayed, she very nonchalantly said,' So the flight delay until 10.10 ocrock'... In broken English no less......

I pray that my FIL hangs on till we come. I hope I don't meet this particular person because in my mind, I have a really strong desire to push her. Not a pretty picture. As I've declared, I'm leaving Ms Nice in HK.......

Please say a prayer for my FIL ok?